I was thinking deep this weekend as I had a lot of time sitting and resting to get healthy again after an attack of fever just before the weekend. During this free time for my mind, One thought came back to my mind over and over again...
Why do some of us think that all the BAD in this world is happening only to them?
Why Why Why???
Well I have to admit even I have got that feeling many a time and still get it occasionally. Only when I am too frustrated or have had a very tough day at the office do I get such a feeling nowadays. But then it happens.
Luckily for me I got this feeling first when I was very young and have taken the positives from it.
Now when I get such a feeling, I just think that I am fortunate that I am getting to learn a few things at such a young age.
But I am seeing a few people off late who keep getting this feeling over and over and over again.
Well here I don't blame the feeling that the person is having. If a person keeps thinking that what is happening in life is bad and there is nothing for me that can turn out to be good. You keep thinking that there is still worse to come, then you will certainly feel low and depressed.
I also feel that some of us think that we are the only persons working a lot in this world and crib slightly about it. But when I look around me I realize that I'm not alone who's working. I think certain people should keep their eyes and mind wide open for them to realize this.
You may realize that I am a bit out of sorts when I am writing all this. Well Yes I am. If someone shows a lot of attitude how would you feel?
I have thought how I should react when someone shows a lot of attitude. My bad self says that you should be the worst person on this planet when you are interacting with or think of that person. Then my mind and brain tells me that I am wasting my time and there is nothing to be gained by me being rigid. I will try to be as normal as I can and see if I was right.
This all leads to one another question which keeps coming back to my mind...
This is totally related to my life and no other person...
Why do certain incidents happen in life? Here I do not refer to bad incidents or good cos i haven't thought about if it was good or bad. There have been quite a few things that happened or you can say my life has taken a certain path in the last 7-8 months that I keep analyzing as to why did this ever happen the way it did? What if it had turned out the other way round?
It is a kinda of like - what would have happened if I had opted for working in TCS rather than Infosys 2.5 Years back?
There are some questions that do not have a second option at all...
There were certain things that happened and I don't know why it happened and was it ever necessary? What was in store for me to have learnt from that incident and those that followed?
I didn't even find a clue in all of this. It may be that I am not a good detective...
I keep asking questions to myself... but for some things I do not get any answers at all.
Well it may be that the fever has taken a toll on my thinking...
Hope to be back to normal soon...